Monday, November 28, 2011

Losing my Mind

Where have I been since I last posted?

I really can't tell you. My life has been busy, but not necessarily the good kind. It's been a more of a mix I suppose. I'd say most of it has just been a blur. Not the best feeling to have when you are a young twenty-something. On the plus side, I am gaining more confidence at work. And while I am still in the adjustment phase, it is becoming easier on my poor college-scheduled brain.

Once I get home though, it's a different story. I am forgetting to fill out paperwork (I missed TWO bills over Thanksgiving, crap crap crap), I've misplaced little things as I'm running out the door... it goes on. If I am feeling like this as a single person with no kids, then how do families do it? The women in my office say it's really hard. It's always a challenge for them to make sure that they are taking care of their marriage, kids, house and somehow find the time to take care of themselves. So I know that it's tough no matter what age you are and whether you are supermom or not. But I think they all are currently doing a much better job than me. >...<

I'm still behind on personal projects, though I have made some significant headway recently. I'll get there. I really need to write some letters, one to someone that I failed pretty miserably. I still feel guilt over how I handled that one. To be fair, it was a situation that I just didn't know how to deal with. Now that I am in a working environment, I am able to use that past experience and communicate much more effectively. I still should write him a letter...

So this is where I am at. I am Generation Y according to the "research."I fit the profile pretty well. Now if you will excuse me, I am going to go finish up some Cyber Monday shopping and then promptly fall into bed.

Much love to y'all,

*Update, it was only one bill I missed, and that will be taken care of tomorrow. I'll probably call and see if I can get any late fees waived. Either way, it's not very big. But the other would be if I really had missed it. Whew. :)


  1. Hugs! Hey Beth, I have a notebook with a page in it that contains all of my bills listed by date that they are due each month, the name of the bill and the $. It looks something like this:
    5th: Netflix: 7
    15th: rent- 250
    20th- gym-20
    29th: loan- 100
    This way I never forget because I am always looking at the notebook. Also, I usually have all my bills "directly paid" from my bank. I figured out this works for me after joining the simi-adult world. I don't know how some people do it. Most adults I know are usually tired. I don't want to be one of those adults. It is my belief that a married women with children should not work, but thats just what I think. I know sometimes that they choose to and sometimes they have too, but I still think their job is to take care of the home, children, husband, and to be a Godly example. My mom worked but I think children who have a stay at home Christian mom are more adjusted and well rounded. =) I hope to be that mom! Maybe. The thought of having any kids, adopted or not, makes me scared!!!

  2. That is a good idea! I'm going to have to probably do that too.

    And yeah, I agree about women with kids working. But it is hard. Especially when fiances come into play. I think a lot of it is also lifestyle choices. When your kids want horseback riding lessons, you better have a way to pay for them. The other option is to sacrifice somewhere and who wants to do that? :(

    My mom stayed home when my younger sister was born, so she stopped working for four years. I hope to make that my minimum, or have a job that is super flexible. And those thoughts scare me too! O.o